"Inner Demons"

"Inner Demons"
Written By: James McCrossin
Date: 05/20/2012



Stood in the crowd,
Glancing up in
Never rejoicing or applauding,
Just watching you win.
(I would go to concerts and listen to bands play, I felt out of place and never mixed myself with the crowd. People jumping up and down shouting and applauding. I sat by just watching.)

You'd remember my face,
If you took a long look.
Enlightening eyes, it is within
I don't want to lie...
Don't want to hide....
(I always had eye contact with members of the bands and for an instance they would peer back at me. I could see something in their eyes that I see in myself. An enlightenement look and feel, almost as if they werent really there. What does this mean?)

Lord help me learn
Learn if it's right.
Can I have it.....
And still be in your eyes?
I know now his power
Can I do what I love,
Without the fear of my soul being devoured!?
 (Is that enlightenement that I saw, the face of the dead or is it truth?)(Scary because I have seen it in myself....)

This is what I know!
How I feel....
I won't be controlled!

He tries to trip and stumble
We all fall...
Only some will rise above it all.
Watch your steps,
Don't take the bet,
His power is an inner net!

He accepts the reason,
Some won't understand at all,
She's tossed away for treason,
This is your call!

Take me!.....void me for all.
Test me!......I have my flaws.
At least I correct myself when I am wrong!
Ten commandment are my laws.

Don't underestimate him,
He will make you fall
But the righteous!!.....
Will rise above it all.

You point your finger!
Because you are not...
Watch my anger!....
Turn White Hot!!.....

We think we have the answers.....
But you do not know.....
There's no particular reason......
And He will not show!